Hi ladies! I bet most of you have seen my other post and know what I am going through. Well I want to let you all know that i have made my decsion. I also told my mom everything today. Befor I even told her I started crying. She didn't yelled at me. So I am keeping my baby even though it will be hard and I AM GOING TO BE A SINGLE MOTHER. I don't want to see this baby father ever again he doesn't exist for me no more.Since me and him weren't together no more I found out that he has a girlfriend by someone else and also we haven't talked since wednesday and he doesn't know I know all this. I also found out that he was with other girls and now I know why he kept saying this baby will be a problem and drama and why he didn't want it, well still doesn't. I haven't seen him or talk to him and yesterday I couldn't stop crying. I don't know what I did or what I did to him to deserve all this. But I can say thanks to this baby I am staying strong and everytime I'm sad or crying I feel my baby move and I look down and know I am not alone. My mom and family and friends are supporting me. My mom doesn't want me to see him again and I wasn't planning to. I don't even want him to come back and look for MY child. after what he has been doing and the way he been acting and also everything he has done behind my back. I can't even forget the day he called my baby THAT THING YOU HAVE INSIDE YOU. or we need to take care of this SHIT. My baby won't need him cause as a father he/she will have me and my brothers and guys cousin said they are their father so my baby will have more than one daddy. It's so hard right now and I'm new in all this and now I don't know what to do if I should put him on child support or not. He's leaving the country next month well he told me he will be gone for 5 or more years but I also found out that he told someone he talks to and also talks to me that he will be gone for one yr or 2 so i guess he was lying to me? Honestly I don't want to leave the door open for him to see my baby and my baby will have my last name too and no I don't even want his family later on to be chasing after my baby. My mom did told me that if he cared he would of worked out things with his family and told them about all this and woud of done anything to work all this out and wouldn't care what his parents will do or think. But I'll admit he's a bitch (sorry for my bad language) but I'm so mad and I still can't believe all this he played me really good and I feel soo stupid! I think I'll never be able to forgive him. I'm just happy my mom understood me and that she is going to help me. I couldn't see my baby on someone else arms that are not mine. I'll try my best to be a good mom and always be there for my munchkin. Thank you ladies for your advice and help and support it means a lot and you girls did help me out. Thank you! :)
I'm staying strong I can do this!