Why do I repeat over and over? I just want to be happy.
Well lets see, I got pregnant with my son my junior year of high school 2004. I had him the summer of 2005. Hurrican Katrina hit when he was two months old, but I still finished highschool while working. I broke up with his father. I'll call him (D). Met another guy (W) younger than me, but I was in love he helped me raise my son. After a year I found out he was living about drug use which I'm against. Stupid me stayed with him, we broke up and got back together, then I got pregnant with twin girls had them in 2007. He proposed but it wasn't nothing special. Made me fill like he was doing it cause I was prego. Two years later still never got married and my son is 4 twins are 2. We broke up again for like 6 months. Got back together in 2010. Then last year around the end of March I found out he slept with my then friend. I was heart broken cause even through all the lies, fights, and him still smoking I still loved him. I then met another guy (G). I guess he could be the rebound, but once again I fell in love with him or at least I think I did. He turned out to be another asshole, another immature guy except he is 30. We moved in together and where together for a year. But he just doesn't care about anything. His anger and temper is horrible. He doesn't care who he picks a fight with. Friday he was driving my car with my kids in the back seat. Some young guy was riding our tail so he slams on his breaks gets out the car at a red light and goes up to the guys window and what happens the guy pulls out a razor blade! I jumped in the driver seat and left him there. I'm sick of the way he acts and of course it always gets turned on me. I just keep falling for the immature bad guys. I don't know why. Needless to say I'm done with him. I've haven't been really single for the past 10 years. I've only been with 3 guys and only dated 4 my whole life. Over the past years my sons father (D) has continued to try and be with me when ever me and whoever I'm with breaks up. Just two weeks ago he tried again asking me out. My twins father got back with his first gf from school and now there are engaged. He gave her the ring he gave me. I didn't keep it cause its his family's ring. And even though there engaged he still messages me telling me he loves me more than her and blah blah blah. My whole life has sucked except my children. All I ever wanted was to be loved like I love them, to get married, to have my family and be happy. But, no I'm stuck in this circle that just doesn't end. I'm sorry girls I just needed to vent.