Moms, what do you do for a living and how do you get by?
I'm pretty much a stay at home mom because I have to be. My daughter (almost 6 months) and I live with my parents. I am "in school" but not really. I had started going to court reporting school (my mom is a court reporter but now owns her own business and does closed captioning for people who are hard of hearing or deaf) so I basically had a guarunteed job. Well I got pregnant, had to move back home, drop out, and now my mom is teaching me. and it's going okay, but kinda slow and I'm just miserable. I don't even want to do it anymore. It's going to take a few years to get through and at this pace, a lot longer. Also, I am 23 so my daughter and I will both be kicked off my parents' insurance in 2 years. No way will I be done with school and working by then. so then what would I do?
I am already a certified medical assistant, but I hate MANY aspects of the job. I did my internship and then never looked back at dr's offices. but now I am and I don't know how I feel about it. Also, I went on got certified thinking I could get paid more, but the place I interned at said they would only offer $11/hour. That was before I was pregnant, way before, and even then I knew that's not enough. I have applied at a couple MA jobs that don't require the hands on (blood draws, injections, in office surgical procedures) but haven't followed up but thats my fault. Part of my problem is that I feel like I am depressed so whenever the baby is asleep, all I want to do is sleep. I cry myself to sleep a lot. I'm just not happy with where my life is going and along with that I worry about where my daughter's life is going. If I'm miserable, she will be too and that isn't fair to her so I really need to figure my S!@* out.
Today my mom asked me where I see myself in 5 years. I looked at her and said "sitting right here doin the same thing. 100% dependant on you, not able to do anything for me or my daughter. if I'm doing anything, itll be some bullshit job making enough to pay for daycare and that's it." thats a horrible thought for me but that's really what I see.
I guess my question is, how do you do it? how do you make money? how do you make it all work?