My soon to be ex-husband was a very sneaky, evil, dishonest person. I had been with him since I was 17, married at 18, and just now divorcing at my age of 28. (And in retrospective, I should have known he was a creep.) He is now 51, in jail, and hopefully dies. Soon. There was child pornography pretty much everywhere: computer, phone, SD cards, etc.
He made me doubt everything. So many times I go back in my mind and think, oh...so THATS why he wanted to do these things. I was so scared that he had harmed my boys, and I still want to kill him. (Thank God, my boys are okay, and are actully doing well since that prick is gone) I will never put my boys, or myself in that situation again. I will never be with, or trust, another person in my life.
Therapy ISNT helping, and I don't know what to do. I feel so angry at him, still, and I'm tired of it. I want to put it in my past, but I don't know how. I feel such hatred towards him, and all the men I come into contact with (ie work or whatever).
Any ideas on what I can do to not be so pissed off?