I don't go out like ever. I never have a sitter and I hate feeling like I'm pawning off my kid. I also don't really have money to blow at the bar. I'd rather be at home with my son, being a mom. Well that means I have no friends now. All my friends either don't have kids or have people to watch them whenever so they go out to the bars all the time. It's just not my thing. Even tonight I could have gone out for a "friends" birthday at Enchanted Castle. I probably could have brought my son for awhile and saw some people. The thing is I didn't even get the invite until after I saw someone else a couple days ago and they thought I was already invited, an hour or so later I got the invite on FB from the person whose b-day it was. I just don't talk to anyone except sort of on FB and the last time I did go out with them, like a year ago, it didn't go well. I was so out of the loop and then they got mad when I was leaving b/c I had been up early with my son and wasn't all for the way younger guy hitting on me and left for my bf (we were in rocky terms then) My bf is now on the outs with all of his friends and they all hate me anyways and me and him are even on not so good terms.
I feel so alone all the time. I don't even fit in with the moms from my sons school His dad pays for catholic school, they're all 10 years old than me and have money. I'm the single, young, poor mom. I don't fit in anywhere.