Ok so I have been single for almost a year.... Also sexless. I dumped my last bf in mid January of last year for several reasons. Afterwords I had found out he had cheated on me when we were together. I found out two or three weeks after I dumped him (super bowl sunday to be exact) that I was preggers. I tried to contact him to let him know ALL day and finally went to his house and he was with the girl he was cheating on me with. I told him I needed to talk but I saw his 7 year old son come up behind him so I asked him to come outside for a minute. He said no to just tell him what I needed to tell him. So instead of telling him the news in front of his son I showed him the test and he shut the fucking door in my face. He has only contacted me once since then and he never even asked how the baby was doing or even talked about it he was just trying to get laid because him and the girl he cheated on me with were broken up for a few days. Well I basically told him to go fuck himself I hated his guts and that he was a shitty excuse for a man. So I haven't had sex since early January and I have only been on a couple of dates but nothing really clicked with anyone. I don't want to sleep with someone again until I develop strong feelings towards the person. Plus I am not on bc yet and CANNOT afford another child. But I am so lonely and I have needs. But I also have a two month old that I feel bad leaving with the sitter to go on dates. I just feel like every guy is the same and I am never going to meet the one.
on Dec. 8, 2013 at 2:27 AM