Somestimes i dream of a different life .... i never thought id end up a single mom to my exes kid living at home w my parents. I dream of finding someone who loves me and now loves my fatherless son too. Ive only dated losers and thats all i ever seem to find. I know i should wait for the good ones but im also scared of dying alone or becoming that scary cat lady everyone avoids. I dont know how to find a good one because all ive ever done was settle. Now that im a mom. I refuse to settle. Does that mean ill never find love ? I always wanted the house and husband and yard full of kids. Now im homeless and a single mom to a two month old. It scares me to think of how many hours i need to work to support us. All those hrs i will b missing my kid grow. I never wanted to b a single mom. I never wanted this life that i have. I dont know how to make it better for my son. Sometimes i feel so hopeless. Like i can never make it right for the two of us. It seems so daughting. Like a mountain im trying to climb up barefoot. The one thing i want more than anything right now is a home for me and my son. I may never find mr right but if i could provide a good home for my son id be worth something. Maybe then i wouldnt be such a screw up that everyone thinks i am.
on Dec. 26, 2013 at 11:12 PM