so I've just started with a lawyer to serve baby daddy and also figure out what I want from him and visitation stuff.. I'm finding it all SO OVERWHELMING, there's issues of me wanting him to get random drug tests and worries about him saying no to that, there's just so much to it so many what oaf and what can I actually do that will stick.. my ex has not even made any effort to see her 9month old besides one night I asked him to and he texted me right after he picked her up from daycare that he couldn't say with her long, when I got there he's crying his eyes out telling her how much he loves her blah blah blah I thinking wow he really does care, he says to her I'll see you Tomrrow, so the next day no calls no texts, he made a million broken promises but he seems like he's two different people. I feel bad for baby at least she didn't understand what he said so she wasn't waiting for him all night.. I'm just pissed I'm trying to accept that he only can give what he can give and he's never gonna be a good stand up dad but wtf he's still ruling my life and my emotions even after I kick him out.. I'm letting him get to me and it's making me not eat not sleep last week I lost 6 pounds in a few days and I haven't sleep in a long while. I toss and turn thinking about court and all the crap that I'm going to have to go through, I get so angry at he left me to take baby on by myself and he gets to just hang out without a care in the world.. I just pissed and it's really unhealthy i got away from him to be happy not to be a nervous angry reck!! has anyone gone through a similar situation? how do you deal? how do you not let them get the best of you with there self centered bs??
on Feb. 8, 2014 at 2:14 AM