I'm so tired of being alone. I'm tired of needing a friend and none being there. I'm just tired. I need help and no one is around and i don't know how many more times I can pick myself up. I desperately need someone to show that they care and that i matter. I've gone to friends houses and cleaned on days I don't work and dont have my kids, because they need help. But no one has ever done it for me. They act amused and always respond, I wish I could but ive got something stupid to do and don't want to :). I get the amused apology as a response to me calling to finally vent, even though I'm crying and saying i wish i could just take off and not deal with this anymore. How is that funny? What about me reaching my limit is funny? I'm venting on a website full of people I dont know in desperation for sympathy instead of getting some real help from my family and so called friends. It's pathetic. I can't keep doing this.
on Jul. 11, 2014 at 5:01 PM