Hi all I am so frustrated an i need to vent..................My daughters father and I have been separated for almost a year for the 3 months he wasn't involved at all but then he started going to AA got sober and has been seeing her, paying CS and seeing her as often as possible (he lives in Ct and we live in Ny.) I was dating someone else an I thought i was really happy but then he started talking marriage, having kids, a house, and a future together and suddenly i was not on the same page at all. I was actually kind of freaked out because I realized that I'm still in love with my daughters father and I just can't imagine having another child with anyone but him. Wait before you all freak out on me i'm not saying that i'm gonna but if he and I never work it out i'm perfectly content with it being just me an Jayla, I don't want to have anymore children or get married, is this crazy??? The guy I was dating, well we broke up because i don't wanna get married, be engaged, or have children. I'm not sad that we broke up, i don't even miss him, and he was a great guy but i feel confident in my decisions an he thinks i'm nuts. I just don't know what to do now around my daughters father, he knows somethings up he's already asked me the last 2-3 times he's seen us whats bothering me. Its hard to even be in the same room with him. I have to bite my tongue and walk out of the room to keep myself from just falling apart and pouring my heart out to him. He's done some really horrible things to me and hurt me in many ways but i guess not enough to sever my feeling for him. Thanks for listening i just need to vent to anyone other than him, i'm feeling so confused i don't know how i ended up back here.
on Jan. 30, 2008 at 12:05 AM