to tell me they know how I feel...here goes...I am in the process of going through a divorce and feel good that this is the step that I am taking. I found out several months ago that my husband (i like the word ex much better though) has been doing drugs for some time know. He has recently (in the past 2 months) gone through a rehab program and states that he is clean, however even though he probably is clean he still has this crappy attitude. In the past couple of weeks I have had to limit the contact with him to pretty much nothing because it never went anywhere. I realized that he was only going to do what was right only when he thought that it was going to go somewhere with him and I. He has visitation (supervised by his mother, which is court ordered) with Jakob every Thursday from 5 to 8 and every other Sunday from 10 to 6. He agreed to this as well and it has been going on for about 4 to 6 weeks now. However, every time it comes time for him to get Jakob he is either running late or his mother is not there to supervise and it messes everything up. Last Sunday I took him over there and his grandmother was going to supervise instead of his mother because she supposedly had a funeral to go to. Once again when I dropped Jakob off no one was there to supervise. So I went ahead and left Jakob there and called 10 minutes later to see if they showed up and it hit the fan from there...he proceeded to tell me that he could get his other son and take him whenever he wanted and if I didn't think he was sober I could just come back and get Jakob and blah, blah, blah...so that's what I did. As I came back to pick Jakob up he proceeded to scream at me while I was putting him in his car seat, he was telling me he was going to pray for me and kept quoting me the serenity prayer. The whole time I just kept buckling Jakob's car seat and tried to remain calm while Jakob just sat there and stared at his dad (does that tell you anything?). So since then my lawyer and I agreed that my mom should drop Jakob off last night for his visitation just to give me a break...same thing happened. My mom dropped Jakob off at 5 and Michael never showed up til 6:30! DId I mention that his visitation is over at 8, that gave him a whole hour and a half with his son. I'm almost done I promise...In the course of all this I keep getting these crazy text messages one right after the other saying 'some people are sicker than others'...not sure what that means yet, doesn't sound good though. I either respond with nothing or tell him not to text me anymore, neither works!
I am basically just so frustrated and mad that I have to give my son to this crazy dumba$$. It saddens me to know that he will have an influence over my son's behavior. I have always been the one to take care of Jakob even when we were married. I was the one who took him to and from school, doctors appt., fed him, took care of him when he was sick, even when I was sick. I'm just pissed and stressed out all the time about this. Not to mention, no child support!
on Jul. 6, 2007 at 9:53 AM