So me and my ex boyfriend have three kids all together (his, mine, and ours). We have been together for 3 1/2 years. That entire time he has been an alcholoic and slightly abusive (never the kids but I'm sure it still effects them). Any ways may of this year i had enough and we broke up, he has since stopped drinking completely (i know its hard to believe but he's doing great and has changed in many ways) I know I'm not in love with him anymore, but since the break up and his changing he is a great person and very supportive. We still live together due to financial situations (I'm moving out next month). However we have been getting along great for about a month now and say i love you to each other. I'm just scarred to love him again I'm afraid of things going back or just not being what i want. My other problem here is i have a friend from high school who i just found again. He is everything i have ever wanted in a man (husband, father, partner). He could give me everything i have ever wanted and wants to. He understands my situation right now and gives me the space i need to get things figured out. But i don't have a strong attraction to him (hes very good looking i just don't really feel anything). Is love something you feel from the start or can it grow? Is living with out that strong feeling worth having everything ive ever wanted. ?s giving my ex another chance another bad mistake?(i've made a lot and don't want to any more its gonna start effecting my kids) I just need some one who's not in my life or circle to give me their opinion.
on Jul. 10, 2007 at 9:41 PM