OK ladies.....I need to vent!
How pathetic can you get! After daily phone calls from this guy (and my mother), I finally sent him the following message:
I need you to calm down. I can’t have multiple voicemails and texts when I don’t answer your calls right away. Also, I like talking, but the daily phone calls to get info. on the abortion has to end. I am feeling very pressured by both you and my mom and really just need to space to breathe. In other words, please back off a bit. The CVS is on 9/24. Until I know who the father is for certain, I am not going to abort it. This may sound harsh, but if you help pay for paternity testing and the baby proves to be yours, then you can voice an opinion. Until then, I need you to leave me alone on the subject. If you want an abortion to be considered, then the paternity testing must be done. I have all but $153 of the $1600 needed for the CVS. I still have to come up with another $800 for the labwork. I’m sure they won’t release any results until they are paid. Then either you or Jamie will have to be swabed for paternity. This costs $450. By October 1st, we should all know who the actual father is and I will only be 13 weeks. That still leaves 3 weeks for an abortion to be done if it comes to that. My mom will pay for the abortion so you don’t have to worry about the extra cost there. You have voiced your concerns and opinions several times to me, but until I know you are the father I am not inclined to be pressured by you into having an abortion at this time. Don’t bother to try to change my mind about this. I will talk with you of other things, but for now, not this. I hope you can try to understand.
His first reaction is to call me (I don’t answer, I’m still at work). He leaves me a message where he sounds like he’s distraught and crying: we made an agreement, he can’t aford a child, he can’t afford to lose his house and to cause more trauma for his son. No reaction from me yet, so he sends yet another voicemail. He’s not crying in this one, but telling me that this isn’t fair to him! Please! Like it is fair to ask me to abort a child that I want and that the other potential father wants if it is his. Too bad! He couldn’t keep the condom on the whole act because it cost him sensation. He didn’t want to put it on right away either until he got good and hard after a few thrusts. He made his choice then, now its my turn. I choose to find out for certain if my ex-bf is the father. I doubt it is this guy’s anyway, the chance is very small. All I want is to be left alone to make this decision on my own without being pressured. I want this baby. I probably can’t afford the financial ramifications either, but I’m trying my hardest! How do I tell him to take a flying leap? Should I tell him that? What if he is right, and with his horrible luck he does turn up as the bio-dad?
Well....thanks for letting me vent.