1st Miscarriage, not sure how to feel...
So, I'm sorry if I am venting, but I will share my story. I have a beautiful little son who is 14 months old. We decided to try for a sibling and were lucky to get pregnant the first month. At 8 weeks we had an ultrasound and saw a little bean with a strong heartbeat. That put my mind at ease. I was measuring 7w5d. Then today (at 12w5d) I went in for a routine appt. They couldn't find a heartbeat with the dopler, so they immediately did an ultrasound. As soon as I saw the ultrasound, I knew something was wrong. It didn't look large enough and there was obviously no heartbeat. The dr. measured and it was only 8w0d. I haven't had any unusual cramping or bleeding. I had been feeling worried about miscarriage this entire time, but I thought it was just me being paranoid. So, I am scheduled for a D&C on Tuesday. What a horrible thought... but my doctor is worried about hemorrhage.
I had tried to prepare myself for this just in case, but it still hurts! It's horrible to un-announce it to everyone. I had been so excited for the timing of the pregnancy. I want my children to be close in age. It's hard to greive the baby while also greiving the fact that all our plans are going to be different. I have a strong faith in God and I know he has a plan for me. I trust him completely, but it is still hard.
I just wish I would have done my first ultrasound a few days later, since the baby seems to have passed days after my first ultrasound. What an awful feeling.
I would love some advice on coping and moving on. I would love advice on how to prepare for the d&c. Thanks all.