It's been about 6months since we lost Ethan but I can happily report I am doing so much better. I was truly worried for my sanity for a bit there! I miss my son every day and wish things would of been different for him and us. I have found my strength once again! I'm back at work and can hold an infant without falling apart. The thought of never going back to the day care really worried me, it's all I have ever done in life that's been a true joy. My dreams of teaching are also moving forward with the start of going back to college this summer, I don't want to wait and regret that choose later. My husband and I have made the hard choice of not having more children and I had the Mirana put in a few weeks ago. The hubby is actually going to be a grandparent in January...his daughter is prego! Lol My brother and sis in law are happy parents of twins as of late April and Auntie will wait to see them till July. Honestly the family having kids right after my baby passed away was hard news to take but I am so happy for everyone involved. Maybe it is what will help my heart heal all the way as I hope it will someday?
I hope everyone is doing as well as can be expected...my thoughts are with you. Hugs