never ending waiting again / Update 2/8/12 : (

[drfink]

In my never ending search I periodically look for new registries while checking the older ones.Wed night I came across what appears to be an new one or revamped one specific to my state.It Seems vaguely familiar but I register again.Thursday evening there is a message in my email telling me to contact a specific person at the agency the maternity home was with they have information.My heart stops and starts over and over.I call the number provided though I know no one is there.So starting at 8am I start calling no answers till 9 ...neurotic yup...I am sent to her voice mail.It says for best results in reaching her email is best.I leave a message and email.Nothing....I call again today and ask is she away from the office ...NOPE ...so I leave another message and email .This time I ask her to shoot me a quick email saying if they are looking at records but that I am quite anxious so would just like acknowledgement.I practice saying it so I don't sound too upset or angry...she has power.So it is 8 pm here and still nothing.Oh ya their site goes on and on about support for birthmothers and this registry they have.

The torture is indescribable.I am pretty sure this is just to brag about their sucky worthless lack of acknowledgement so called agency registry...been there and they kept forgetting to post me...but I still can't help thinking this could be the time .I can't stop shaking,just let me know something please please please...

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Late afternoon yesterday I got what I think was an automated reply saying how to be on their registry.That was the message they had for me.The same one that never ever posts me and blew off all my calls.Last night was my IRL adoption support group.Batmom contacted me and introduced me to it about 15 months ago.A true gift in my life.The facilitator works for an agency that works with foster to adopt and she does searches.In Dec she re met at a conference the woman in charge of searches at the agency I was at.They had crossed paths over the year.Our facilitator took it on herself to call her personally and ask about the lack of response etc.The woman apologized ,she only recently started working at the agency and told our facilitator she couldn't say she was surprised at the way I or other birth mothers were treated when asking for support ,search etc.She has decided to change her part,She gave our faclitator for me her personal cell and email ,She has to follow the laws of our state but she will help me search,She is an adoptee that loves and cares about both of her mothers I was told. So maybe she has a heart for this.So trying not to be very hopeful till ....

[vampporcupine]

Omg, I hope hope hope this is it for you. I can barely type this!!!! Please please please update when you get updated.
Hugs and more hugs

[Vikki77]

I can't stand it when they don't answer! I hope she contacts you soon and I pray she can give you some answers! Keep us updated, please.

[susie703]

How cruel for her to not be available for your call back. I hope you hear from her soon!

[batmom823]

They never operate with the same sense of urgency we have.  Hoping and praying.   Hang in there.

[Myrick4pack]

Hope you get a call or email A.S.A.P! Looking forward to an update!