I received my letter from my oldest.It did come via email through the agency after all.Other than his first name there is identifying information at all.His name is the same as my 15 year old first name .My 15 year old goes by his middle name.
I called Batmom and talked her ear off last night about his letter and mine back to him.,
In it he refers to learning more and answering more in depth questions in the future .Yay She told me it really has the sound of a letter planning to start a relationship.I had thought hope hope so also.
FUTURE FUTURE FUTURE knowing each other.
Despite the agency witch making sound like his parents were unhappy he said they have known from the start and are very supportive of this relationship.This can only be good.
Bless his heart he apologized to me for not doing more search after the agency told I had not left contact.I told him not to be worried by contacting the agency at all he had done everything I had prayed for him to do.
He told me a little about himself his college but no name ,his job but no name and some of his interests .
He was a National Merit Scholar...he got ALL that from me ; )
I wrote him back 13 different versions but went with the first with a couple of minor variations suggested to me.My closest friend ,Batmom,my shrink and the woman that intervened all reviewed the letter.The facilitator that teaches search and reunion was the last to review.She said it was a great first letter.
Oh my gosh I feel like I'm on an out of control elevator up-down-up -down-laugh-cry-laugh-cry,Tell everyone but really tell no one.I can't handle nasty raining on my parade right now from clueless people.Have something real and constructive and helpful that is great but lecture me on how I should have forgotten and moved on NOPE go away.
I locked my keys in my car again...the third time since Feb 6 when I heard back he had looked for me.I got to my shrinks office with two pairs of my reading glasses on my head and my sunglasses on my nose in their proper place.I was reading something off my phone to him dropped it and it all came apart.Both cards and battery.He put back together ,reminded me I don't need two pair of glasses at a time and told me after I am home for the evening have a couple of glasses of good wine.LOL I have two LAX games in a few minutes to go to .My teens season is done yay it started in Aug.whew.
Currently I'm on the up.
So it is really happening .I am going to meet my son...almost unbelievable that it is real.
THANK YOU AGAIN...without this group this would not be happening