I don't understand it. I've needed to talk about my son more the past week, but get shut down. A couple of people have changed the subject quickly, including my sister, who usually listens. So, I just stop, and have to suffer inside alone. I know my husband can tell I need to talk, but it hurts him too much to bring it up. He'll ask if I'm o.k., but I know he's hoping it won't be about "that".
I wish there was a support group close by. I think the closest would be Seattle. I think if there was something in Olympia, I could do that.
I'm thinking a lot about seeing my son in September, and trying to imagine what I'll say and do. I'm so afraid I'll do something wrong. I want to be honest with him about how I feel, without him feeling pressured. If love could heal us, it would be done.