oh my gosh ...don't want to jinx it but it is looking better and better...oh my gosh
oh my gosh everyday gets a little better oh my gosh .In the past few days he mentioned in chat to my daughter...M.K. he..M.A. .really looks forward to his dad (adoptive) meeting my 28 y.o. ..M.J.1 they both love to hunt and are certified licensed rifle instructors and more THEN he chatted to my 16 y.o ...M.W.. that in the spring he hopes to get in town to see the two of them ,!4.y.o. ...M.J.2 in one of their LAX tournaments. M.A. IS TALKING ABOUT MEETING...casually I know but he is talking about it !!!!
Then he FB messages M.K. if she was wanting to blow off FB message and just exchange numbers and text....then he emailed me asking if I wanted to talk and set up a phone call.I didn't sleep last night.I might really really get to meet my oldest. I am going to suggest if our call goes well that we go to the city he lives in the Fri and Sat after Christmas.We live 4 hours away .His parents live in a very small city an hour north of the city he lives in.
Oh my gosh I was afraid to even think about actually meeting him.Last night I kinda want to meet him on my own but I realize he and my raised 4 are all in also
I have very cautiously been telling a few friends.I was excited to tell but the second person told me she was thrilled but I should be happy to have provided his mother with a baby...after all imagine living with infertility....ah ya I did have secondary infertility.I also wanted to say then why don't you pop out a few for poor infertile women if it is such a happy thing to do.But no raining on my parade so I have just quit chatting with her.So slowed down but other than my former friend it has been good .I guess I will have to think out more people knowing and putting up my no rain allowed umbrella .
Just oh my gosh ,oh my gosh ,oh my gosh.
I have been very cautious and followed his leads.Thank you this group and all I've read in OTT'S group and the books recommended.I really ,really think I would have been lost or at least MORE lost and confused without this help and support.
Directly due to this group I am here...no group ,no batmom ,no intervention by someone the agency witch respected ,no breaking through the agency lies to me and him.
Oh ya ALL my children's name start with M it is true.It wasn't planned I gave the boys I raised family names from my side of the family for first names...they have their dad's last name so I got first.And M.A. 's first name is the same as my 16 y.o.'s first name but he uses his middle name.OK nervous chatter here but just oh my gosh
Have to go cry now...what a roller coaster ride.Oh my gosh
oh ya what do yall think about my meeting plan ? Suggestions ????
just oh wow ,Emily