I Meet Him Tomorrow ....very ,very very nervous....UPDATE 12:30 A.M.
We leave tomorrow around 11 to go meet my oldest.I didn't know elation and terror could occupy the same place.There is a part of me that wants to keep the status quo ...we text ,FB message ,email and an very occasional phone call but he seems to like me.I am terrified upon meeting me he will run off screaming...not literally but in his mind.
I wasn't able to see my shrink yeasterday ,I have had a horrid stomach virus, so he calls me last night and is all supportive shrink like then tells me I can't be a chicken ...so with that sage psychiatric advice ...LOL
So nervous ,teeth chattering ,knee shaking nervous.
All of us are going.My younger four are excited ,my husband is being helpful and supportive it is just me that is terrified,
My 28 y.o. and he are already talking about him visiting my 28 y.o. in his city .Just terrified things will go wrong and I will screw all this up.
We will be back Sun evening.
think it went well .He came to our hotel...my 28 y.o and 14 y.o met him in the lobby and brought him up.We are in a 2 bedroom Hyatt Suite chain so we have a den.We hugged ,he was a little awkward but he is a 35 y.o. ,visited for about an hour then went out to dinner.He grew more and more relaxed .Came back up and didn't leave till midnight, lots of laughing ,lots of comparing characteristics between all 5..I invited him back for breakfast in the morn around 10 and I think he readily accepted.My daughter was sitting next to him at dinner and sneaked a peak at a text from someone he had said earlier was a very close friend.His friend asks ? ,he responds "better than I thought great,"later, dinner was long friend texts still? and he responds "even better"
I can't sleep cause I am so excited.Tomorrow we got late lunch with his parents and to their house for desert.The one that doesn't like me but I can kiss up with the best of them if needed.
Oh ya HE reached to hug goodbye : ) not awkwardly !!!!
Going to go read to calm down .Texted my sis and two bff's so need to get some sleep if possible.Pic soon.
THANK YALL FOR THE SUPPORT ...IT IS REAL !!! 35 years and 345 days.