I been nervous since I seen my son Dec 22nd. The adoptive parents told me to stay in touch with them and not to be shy to call them sometimes. But I have nerve problems ( had anxiety since age 13) and I get so scared to call because what if that was just a nice gesture and they actually don't want me to stay in touch. All these doubts are getting to me . I did leave the adoptive father facebook messages but he doesn't check his facebook often. And the adoptive mom doesn't have a facebook or email. I am such so nervous that they would get scared if I tried to contact them and pull away. I haven't even shared the pic of my son to family members that are out of state that are only on facebook and they also have no emails. I don't want to scare them basically. I am in a weird phase I guess you can say this is something I never felt and I hate tiptoeing around people but I am too scared that they wouldn't want me to see my son. Sorry for rambling and not making that much sense but I have no clue where I should go from here. My family wants to meet him as well and I told them what the adoptive mom said about especially seeing my son on holidays and birthdays. But my younger sister piped in she said " that is crazy you should get to see your son more than once in a blue moon". She has no kids so she doesn't understand anything lol. Yes I would want to be in my son's life more but he is 12 its up to his Adoptive parents not me.