Yesterday my sons amom arrived at the airport to see me. She spent the night and went to see her son today, after I we dropped her off at the airport. It was so stressful for me before she arrived and continued until today when I got home and fell in a puddle of tears.Our mutual son has lashed out at his amom in December and has not spoken to her since. He stopped communication with me again since September 2012, and was ready to start again in December, but unfortunate miss-communication prevented that from happening.
She gave information and tried to convince me my son has false memories of an unloved childhood. She thinks he's picking up information from group sessions, and taking them on as his own memories.I don't know if he'll follow up with the plan to see her, but I do hope so, so they can heal. I hope she can validate his feelings.
I felt like she was curious about how I live my life with my family and how my other children grew up. I have very loving relationships with all my children. They are all grown, happy and doing well.I know my son has so many unresolved issues with me giving him away. It kills me as his mom, I can't fix it for him! All I can do is keep writing words of encouragement to find joy in his life, and he is worthy, and that I will always love him.
Thanks for the place to vent all this. Will the pain ever stop? It's O.K., I already know the answer.