Lets start out.. with my relationship.
May 2007 - Russell and I met at our local park. Hit it off, and starting being together May 10th.
Aug 2007 - We got preggo.
Dec 2007 - He asked me to marry him. ( I said yes )
April 2008 - our son was born
Now... from then on, weve moved a few times, i didnt have a job at one point, up until tristan was 9 months old. I started working in Jan 2009. Still working there. Russell was then outta a job from aug 2008 - march 2009. he started with dish network. He was losing weight all of a sudden. By August 2009 he had lost 56 lbs. And he kept losing weight. We finally got him to a doc at the end of aug. the beginning of sept. his GI doc told him that he has Gastroparesis. Which when u look it up on wikipedia it says " paralyzed stomach " Its where his stomach doesnt digest well... and takes a LONG while to. That way, his stomach never feels hungry because he hasnt digested what he has ate previously. Anyways.. then Oct. i get a call at work that the ambulance had came and got russell cause his heart rate was up to 170. How that happened we still dont know. The doc couldnt even tell us. Besides an anxiety attack. So, we have went back and forth to docs for a while now. Then 2 weeks ago another doc ( 2nd opinion ) says.. U have h-pylori ( a bacterial infection ) so they reschedule him with the same doc that he was already goin to ( no help )
While we were in the hospital in Oct. they diagnosed him with being bi-polar. Which ive been telling him all along that he was. Now we got to make an appt for a pysciatrist.
And .... so im dealing with this off and on medicine, his pains.. everything. His ranting, his horrible mood swings, stayin at home all the time, and just depressing.
He had to resign in Sept. from dish network because of his condition and how bad it had gotten and to where he could not do anything, he had no energy or strength.
Im still working... 40 hrs a week.. coming home to a depressing world, and i just cant handle my emotions anymore. I dont know whether to cry or get mad, MOST of the time. Im on birth control and for why i dont know... we dont have sex THAT much. And its breakin my skin out..
Anyways, hes tryin to get disability, and while im trying to help, he gets all mad at me. And calls me stupid and all that. .. and im like u are sooo ungrateful. And he is. I mean, what else do i do? Am i not making him happy?
I need friends, i dont get out, i cant handle drama. it gets on my nerves, i cant stand on my job, cause its full of drama, and ughhh.. Plus i dont have my own car, its russells car. And believe me.. that comes up often " well its my car " crap. Even tho im payin for gas and car insurance....
and I just need people to talk to. PLEASE ... befriend me. Call me.. something. PM me.
Thank you so much for all who actually read this, glad u spent a few min. to listen/ read me.
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Wow girl! Keep your heard up and remember that everything happens for a reason, even if it's impossible to know that *reason" at the time.
You are in a really tough situation, which may call for some really tough actions from you. There are a few things worse than living in a miserable household and not having piece of mind....Maybe you should weigh your pros and cons and make it clear to him how you are not going to continue accepting his behavior...and also look at yourself and try to fix areas that needs work...try to remain positive and not let anyone take your joy away...I really hope that your situation improves for the best...if you ever want to chat you can send me a message...I wish you well
Hello,
I know what you're going through right now is not easy. But just know this you're not alone. And i'm told i'm a good listener so if you ever want to talk let me know. Here's my e-mail address gothicbutterfly@hotmail.com.
Life can be rough at times we just have to hang on knowing that GOD will never put more on us than we can bear. He will never leave us or forsake us no matter what.
Sincerly
Screamingangel
I know how horrible you feel hun. You probably feel like you are the only one going through these very stressful situations and nobody understands this misery you are being put through....but you aren't. I could tell you a few of mine. I don't have any family or friends that live near to me, I'm a SAHM and my husband works aout of town a lot, so it's just me and my 14 month old daughter. It gets very stressful. There is some light at the end of the tunnel though. It's just that it seems there are more stressful days than there are enjoyable ones. But it is better to talk to someone..If you ever need to talk, email me at tinky198@yahoo.com. Take care of yourself. I'll send some good karma your way ;)
Tina
I am sorry that you are going through all this, I can't imagine, marriage is for the better or worse I guess this is the "worst" part, just hang in there, it will get better. Am here if you need someone to talk to, julia4bmn@gmail.com. you can get through this. sometimes i feel better when i pray... Good luck with everything.
Continue to keep your head up. I know it might not feel like it to you. but you are Blessed!! you have a job and your baby it could be alot worse.. just remember he is bipolar and many moods come with that. you don't have to put up with being mistreated and the power is in your hands.. if you believe in prayer continue to pray.. and just remember you are not alone. just hearing your story I can tell you are a very sweet person and things will get better for you. and if you ever need to talk I'm a good listener and I also could use some friends :)
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- cristae2007
on Nov. 23, 2009 at 11:01 PM