I am so confused. I'm actully just confusing myself. Part of me wants another baby now, part of me wants to wait and just loss weight. I know that we can't afford another baby yet, my DH is the only one working and I'm going to try to find work after DD's 1st birthday next month. I have to wait until DD is at least 18 months old any before TTC again because of my c-section. I don't have any health ins. anymore so I know its a bad idea to TTC again but for some reason I just keep thinking about a lot, plus DH wants to wait longer too. I know I need to loss the weight anyway, I'm 207 lb when I should be at the heaviest 130-135 lbs. I keep trying to loss the weight, but I'm having a really hard time with it. I'm confused and shit with my own head its not funny.