My midwife says if I exclusively pump I will lose my supply
Hi everyone... any opinions would be greatly appreciated.
So I had a very tramatic birth experience where I lost half of my blood supply. Because of this, I am not producing much milk and I am having to supplement. We were using a syringe to give him some formula but he has since started refusing the syringe. I have to give him something because he is still so hungry. He was in special care and received bottles in there because they said he was "dehydrated". Don't even get me started on that!
That's not why it sucks so much. He FIGHTS when I try to put him to the breast. It hurts and I don't enjoy it at all. We are usually both in tears and it can take 20 minutes to just latch him on. I feel so badly that I don't have enough for him and that I don't enjoy it at all.
I WILL NOT just give him formula. I can only pump about an ounce every couple of hours. So I give him what I can. I am really considering exclusively pumping, but my midwife says I will lose my milk supply and won't be able to nurse. Honestly, I feel that I am going to lose my milk supply from the emense stress caused by the hour long fight I like to call my attempt to "nurse" him.
The worst part is I am beginning to resent him. That sounds so terrible and I don't want to feel that way.
I hope someone has some advice for me!! I think I would like exclusively pumping, I know it's hard, but I can't imagine it being harder than this.
Will I lose my supply if I choose to exclusively pump?
Also he had his tongue clipped, so it's not that. He will be 2 weeks old on Friday.