I just wanted to describe my anxiety attacks. I had one today at the store. I found myself in a convorsation with a fellow mom to be at the store and spoke to her without thinking but as soon as the convorsation was over I started thinking "Should I have said something else?" "Did I say something insulting?" and my back began to seat, my jaw clenched up, my vision got blury, and I had to remind myself to breath. Sometimes they continue from there and my hands tingle along with my arms and I feel sick to my stomach. My worst fear is that she is gonna go home tonight and think "Well shit that lady could have been nicer!" or something like "Damn bitch don't know a damn thing about anything! She needs to just lock herself up and stay outta the world." I guess it's a paranoid panic but I have delt with this for years and have no idea whatsoever how to work through it. I have considered hypnotism. My depression I can deal with I have aharder time dealing with it on meds. I don't really know what a stable mod is suppose to be. I've had bipolar for so long that I cope better off meds but this anxiety started while I was in an abusive relationship and I can't make it go away or learn to cope with it because before that I was so social. Now I don't know how to be. Not outside of teh computer cuz you can always hit delet on teh computer not face to face.