Hi everyone. I'm really lucky to have found a Christian group that can offer advice on stepparenting. I am a childless stepmom of an 8yr old girl. My husband and I were both married before. I didn't have any children, and he had 1. We have been married for 5 1/2 months and have a great Christian relationship. My stepdaughter (SD) and i have a great relationship...in fact sometimes she even calls me mom...and I never asked her to do that...she did that on her own. I love her to death....but it's still very hard being a stepmom. We have my SD every Wed overnight, and everyother weekend. I too, like many other stepmoms feel extreme guilt because most often, I can't wait for her to go back to her mom's so my husband and I can have "our lives" back. I feel so un-Christian like even saying that...I do love my SD...but I think I'm jealous. Jealous that my husband had his first child with his EX rather than me. im jealous of the attention my SD gets when shes here...and I hate the fact that i'm the prime disciplinarian in the house. Wow...reading what i just wrote makes me sound so malicioius...and I promise im a good person.
I need some help channeling these feelings that im having. i don't want to harp on the fact that there will always be another woman (the biomom) in our lives...i have talked to my husband about this and he is very supportive and tries to the best of his ability to understand....but i know deep in my heart he never will because he's not a stepmom. it's def one of the hardest things ive ever done. My husband is my gift from God...I truly believe that...I just have to get past all these ill feelings...help!