Well my daughter has decided she wants to live with her dad. She has been there for about 4 weeks now. I didn't write this post before because I probably couldn't have made it thought it. lol She is 9 and she did not like the school district we are in at all. She has gone there for since Kindergarten but she has never really thrived here. Well the school district her dad lives in is huge!! Apparently she is in her element there. She tells me about all of her friends and her grades are great! She seems really happy. At first I wasn't sure if I was more afraid she would be happy or be miserable. As a mother you don't want your child to be unhappy but the selfish part of me is wanted her to be miserable so she would come home. She had mentioned it over the summer and I told her we would talk about it and think about it and see what she thought at the end of this school year. Well her school was having really bad head lice problems and for some reason she is really susceptible to it and she just kept getting it. She went to her dads one weekend after getting treated and called me over there to tell me that she wanted to go to school over there and live with daddy. I though I would die...seriously I have never had such an unexplainable pain. I knew I had to let her try it...it is only fair. No matter how much it hurts me. I am very proud of her for being such a strong person and making such a difficult decision. She told me "mommy I don't want to hurt your feelings and I love you and I like living with you but I just think maybe it is daddy's turn to have me live with him" My heart melted...I put her in this position the least I can do is make it easiest on her. Anyway like I said she is doing really well there and luckily her dad and I have a very good relationship so that makes things a lot easier. That is what I have been dealing with for the last few weeks. Every day I seem to get a little more used to the idea..I still don't like it and I'm sure I never will! lol You never know how much one little person can fill up such a big part of your home until she is not there everyday! If this is what that empty nest thing feels like....all I have to say it congratulations to every mom that has made it through it because it is hell! Sorry this is so long I just needed to get it off my chest.
So did I do the right thing??? I like to think I did...but it is SOOO hard!!!
on Dec. 26, 2007 at 10:16 PM