Hello I am new here and need friends and advice
I am 46 yr old mother to three grown children. My oldest lives in Conn. and is very sucessful. She wants nothing to do with me for I wouldnt go to the law with her over my son in law hitting her car.But I was scared for he is a drug addict and my youngest daughter and grandson lives with him,and I lived in his front yard so thats how I lost Amanda.Now we come tothe hard part I lost Melissa my youngest over her first being jealous of the time I spent with my emergency foster care baby,then she lied on my son saying he cut her above her eye causing me trouble with social services,then she lied to the police saying my husband now molested her,let me state notears,no being upset just looked them in the eyes and said he molested her. They didnt believe her nor did social services they said she was jealous and disturbed. So I forgave all of this and she then go so she would come sit on my husbands lap and hug him and kiss him,for 4 yrs then 4 months ago she braught it up again and caused her husband to come and throw us out and swing a large 4 x4 at us and strike my trailor and spit in my husbands face ..then stopped me from seeing my grandson. Then my son got involved with a girl who slept around on him,subjected him to aids and admittted she molested her brother. So I asked my daughter why is she better than me to see my grandson.Needless to say all three kids have said I am dead in there eyes and that I am never allowed to talk to them or see my grandson. I am very ill loosing my eye sight on 15 kinds of medicine to stay alive. I took beatings from the kids daddy and begged for food and christmas for my children. I done all I could for them. Baught and gave cars to the two youngest which they sent to the crasher,gave the youngest daughter over $800. worth of furniture . And I am a no good mom. So wher do I go from here? I sit and cry and wish I was dead for I never thaught my children wuld hurt me so. Please someone help me to understand this.