My younger daughter is going to college and working late hours. Then spending time with friends...as she should at her age but, I miss them very much!!!!!
My life has gotten so busy as well! Remarrying, starting our own buisness, and taking care of ss full time when he is here. I spend much more time with my ss than my girls. Don't get me wrong...I love my ss very much, but sometimes I need time with my girls too! It is hard enough that my DH can't love them the same as his son, mostly because of the age difference and coming into their lives when they were almost already adults!
My girls lost their dad when they were early teens and have missed out on having their dad there for all their mile stones...like boyfriends, learning to drive, graduation, jobs, college.....on and on.....
Yet, my ss is showered with everything from both sets of parents. I want my girls to have the same love and attention as my ss, but it doesn't seem possible!
Plus, my DH has no clue what its like to raise two kids to an adult, especially after losing a spouse to death!!
I just lost my mom, and want to make sure I spend these older years with them,but it seems with all the changes in life, we have lost touch with each other! I don't know if there's some anger that I remarried and or having a young ss but, it hurts very much not being able to spend time with them like I would like and not having my DH wanting to do the same! I want hum to ALSO LOVE SOMETHING THAT IS PART OF ME, THE SAME WAY HE LOVES HIS SON THAT IS PART OF SOMEONE ELSE. I wanted one child together. He did not! That hurts everyday and fills me full of resentment as well.
A cross roads in life that is very SCAREY, stressful and makes me very sad! And the only family I have is my dad who is a state away and a brother that is far away as well.
But, starting a full time self employed buisness, finances being a huge issue...and taking care of ss, I can't just come n go like I use to! I'm reaching out to anyone else in a similar situation!!!!!