Feeling a wee bit guilty ... what are your thoughts?
So over at my parents yesterday, I mentioned that IF Johnny has to have surgery, I plan to drive out but I'm tight on funds and asked if my parents would loan me some money to cover gas/lodging for the trip? They know I seldom ask for monetary help and when I do I always pay them back, and of course they said no problem.
I won't know, of course, until Friday whether or not Johnny will be having surgery, but I like to plan for the worst and hope for the best. I've even already alerted the FL boss about this possibility.
Anyway, my dad then asks me if I would mind taking my mom with me. Nothing like being put on the spot! She looked at me with puppy-dog eyes. If she had a tail, I'm sure it was wagging. I really do not want mom in tow, though, and mentioned that I have no way of knowing how long I might be there, so I said "No, I don't think it's a good idea" as nicely as I could. If she was a puppy, her tail was now between her legs, looking at me with sad puppy-dog eyes, head down.
And now I feel horribly guilty about it. Mom will be 82 on Friday and she is frail. I'm sure she would be fine with a road trip (1800 miles each way). I mean, this might be the last time she sees Johnny for all I know ... or it may not. But I'll be staying with Johnny and his GF in their 1-bedroom apartment so already just for me being there I'm not sure about sleeping arrangements, for starters. And if Johnny has complications (like last time) I could be there a while (it was 5 weeks last time).
what do you think? Should I re-consider and invite my mom? I value everyone's opinion on this issue! :o)