I'm getting boobs next week and now that it's all paid for and scheduled I'm feeling terrified, selfish, guilty, etc. This is something I've always been self conscious about but now that I'm taking the step I feel like it's silly and selfish and I can't stop dwelling on all the reasons I shouldn't be doing it. This time three years ago I didn't care if I lived or died and now I'm happily remarried and freaking out that something might go wrong. I know women do this every day and probably a lot more have them done than I realize. It's very personal so I haven't told but a couple of people so I can't vent my feelings too much. Also, I've never had a surgery so don't know how I will really do. I can't even pray about it because I feel like it is a sin of vanity to be doing it in the first place. When I got all excited about going through with it I didn't even think about my religious beliefs and how this fit in. Then this morning I thought, well I wear makeup, dye my hair, and buy pretty clothes so why should I feel differently about this, it's not to show off. Oh, the conflict, oh well, just wanted to vent a little for the nerves!