Tomorrow would have been my mothers 85th birthday. She passed away 2 years ago and I have done a lot of thinking in those 2 years and the years before she passed. She was a difficult and judgement woman. My father spoiled her, it was always her way, what she wanted, all about her. Don't get me wrong, my siblings and I wanted for nothing, and always knew in her way she loved us very much. But she was difficult none the less. The thing that bothers me the most is we were never close. She wasn't someone I felt comfortable going to or talking to. Maybe I could have tried hard, but honestly I didn't have the energy. But she has made me the mom I am today, from what I learned to do from her to what I learned not to do from her. But the most important thing I learned is that being close to my girls is so important to me and I do all I can to make them feel like I am always here for them not matter what. So Thanks Mom, and Happy Birthday.