See what CafeMoms are saying about saving time this holiday season..
I was already emotional because my DD graduated preschool today. My bf came over later after she was in bed and his phone blew up from his friends the entire time. Then his friend called him and told him that he was engaged. Now don't get me wrong, I don't want to be married today, or tomorrow, or anytime in the next year or so, but I would like that eventually. After his friend told me that he proposed and she said yes, the friend said something to effect of "Now its your turn." To which my loving bf said "I don't know about all that." My stomach dropped...IDK if its because I"m already emotional, but really. I didn't say anything, but I have to be honest, I want to cry. I have loved him for years...before we even started dating. He would ask me out once a year when things were rocky with my DD's dad and we were split up. It was obvious that something was there between us for about 6 years before we started dating. I left his comment alone and didn't say anything but at the same time I wanted to cry. I wanted to tell him, I would have married you yesterday, but its not the right time. I'm not working right now and I haven't graduated yet (18 months left). Instead, we started talking about something about my house (that I own), and I told him that when I sell it I can't wait to buy all new furniture, bed, and kitchen table. Half the time, IDK if men have feelings like women do because of all the crap that I've been through with them (I'm not throwing a pity party, but I sometimes don't think they have genuine feelings). I kind of hope it hurt his feelings. I don't really want that, I just wanted him to know how it felt I guess. Thats crappy, but I don't feel comfortable bringing up the topic of marriage or moving in. Partly because I have a DD (5) and I wouldn't feel comfortable asking if we could all live together (I feel like its his job to ask because I have so much more that comes with the territory of living with me. I have major fears of moving in with someone and going through what happened the last time (with DD's dad). I know it was childish of me, but I didn't know what else to say or do. IDK...I guess this was just a vent..