I'm starting to feel like I'm his maid and his cook and his nanny and every once in a while his sex partner. The kids are up at 6 or 6:30 everyday. He NEVER EVER gets up with them. I can't remember the last time he got up & let me sleep in.
I love him. We've been through a lot together. He's a good daddy, and when he puts in an ounce of effort he's a good husband. I do not know how to talk to him about this stuff. I know I'm gonna get angry & sad & jumbled up. I know he'll get defensive & instead of hearing my meaning nit-pick the details. It scares me to feel the way I do. On my own, bitter, hurt. I miss him. I miss him hugging me & making me feel wanted, appreciated, pretty. I don't know why he doesn't do that any more. I still do all that I did and more. I'm laying here typing this crying my eyes out. I feel so stupid.