You ladies were all so helpful and positive when I first posted this I though I would update with my hopefully happy news.
Part 1 from back in November Back story. I met the love of my life 5 1/2 years ago. We were married had a son and split 1 1/2 ago. The divorce was all him, I didn't want it at all. We are on speeking terms now and getting along well. Well I am still in love with him. I believe whole heartedly he is my soul mate. We were talking today and he sent me a test saying he wished he wouldn't have been such an ass and we wouldn't have argued so much... That makes me feel like he has regrets, but I don't know what to do. He has a gf and she is really nice and treats our son so well and I just don't know what to do or say around him now. I know he didn't say he wanted to get back with me but he really made me feel like he wished things were different. I'm not even sure what I am asking of you ladies, guess I'm just hoping there is someone out there that has had a simular experience. Anyway thanks for listening. :)
Part 2 January So we have talked a little off and on but nothing like above really until yesterday. I sent him a suggestive text (refering to wanting him back but didn't say his name) and then pretended it was intended for my SIL. Sneeky but safe :) anyway it sparked his curiosity and we started talking again and he said a lot of things that made me question his decision again. So I point blank asked him if him and his gf broke up if he would ever try "us" again. He told me he thinks about it a lot and that he does still love me and misses our son when he's not around, but he loves her too. I made it very clear how much I still love him and want him back in my life. I feel very good about that because I am not one to bare my feelings. Before we hung up he said he had a lot to think about, I told him to keep me in the loop, So now I'm stuck in limbo and I won't do anything to break them up. But I pray everynight God brings him home where he belongs. Thanks for listening. Hopefully I can post saying my family is back together sometime in the future :)