DS was 10wks early, spent the entire 10wks in the NICU and when he was released we still spent about every other week in the hospital for various reasons for months...
DS is now almost 2. He's in occupational Therapy and Physcial Therapy (he just graduated speech Therapy!) He's terrified of so many daily life things (the vacuume or heater vents for instance), and even alot of toys. If the toy moves or makes sounds he's terrified, if it has weird fur he's terrified of it (like Elmo or cookie monster toys). Were not talking scared, were talking absolutely terrified!
My question is about my reaction to his reaction. I feel instantly panicked, my chest feels tight, like I can't breath, like I just want to run away, I want to cry but I'm just overwhelmed with fear, concern, worry. I'm really not sure what it is but it takes over completely and it takes me an hour, sometimes longer to calm down and feel like I can breathe again. What is going on with me?!?!?! Is my reaction to his normal??? Dh gets upset by my reaction because he says it isn't helping our son, which I understand but I honestly can't help it. It completely takes over.
on Dec. 10, 2012 at 12:05 PM