After 13 years of only having Hubby's side of the Family to lean on I still do not feel accepted. My SILs constantly go out together (sometimes my BILs are with them) and Hubby and I aren't included. Easter is coming up and no one has brought up if we are doing anything together and Hubby and I are both tired of making all the plans. My family is in CA and I'm stuck in PA with a family who does not seem to want anything to do with us pr me and its hard. My Hubby keeps asking me "Why do I care?" Or "How come I let it affect me so much?" We'll it's because I have no one else and he nor anyone else here in PA seem to get that!! All I have is his Family to lean on yet they do not seem to care for me. I want to go on FB or a Blog and post all this but then I seem like a 36 yr old whiny baby because I want to be with Family. The only reason I accepted to move away from my Family in CA to here in PA was because Hubby's Family was huge and did things together every weekend and we all used to laugh together and have a great time. I don't know what happened but no one wants to do anything. They all go out and I read about it and it hurts I would just leave FB but its my connection to Family in CA. Maybe it's my hormones talking since AF is coming or maybe after 13 years and the last two weekends we have not been included in things, I don't know but I'm just hurt and tired of being hurt and don't know what to do about it anymore. Maybe I should go seek a Councelor again just so I have someone to talk to. Sorry for the rant I'm just feeling lonely and no one seems to understand what I'm going through.
I see a lot of other families where the SILs are more like sisters, the BILs seem more like brothers and just wish I had that. I want to put something out on FB like "Missing Family and after 13 yrs no one gets that" or "Just wish after 13 yrs I could be considered Family already and be invited out and not just to a Birthday party"
Sorry for the long rant but feeling upset right now and had to get it off my chest.
on Mar. 24, 2013 at 8:48 AM