Do you ever feel that the older you get the less fun things are? I do.
Its almost like I feel like I've been there, done that, now what? I've been pretty busy for a very long time so maybe I'm losing touch with my "fun" side or something. I might also be going in and out of a little bit of the blues since I've had this last baby. Idk. When I see my kids play and they take such joy in the simplest things like a sprinkler in the backyard or the ice cream truck coming down the road, it reminds me of when things like that seemed so fun when I was a child too. Everythings still new I guess. Even during my teen years and early twenties life was full of excitement and dreams of the future. With my first child, that was a whole new wonderful experience to. My second child was also a new experience because she was a girl(my first was a boy and just as enjoyable but in a different way) and we did all the girly things together. Now I have my third child, my baby boy and he is wonderful. I'm amazed all over again at the miracle of watching him grow into this little person he is. At the same time though, I feel I have been weighted down for so long. I know I need a vacation. In the past few months things have been a bit hectic. I have less and less motivation to keep going. Heck, I don't even want to get dressed half the time. I do crave some excitement and some freedom to just get up and take off to where ever it is my heart desires without having to deal with screaming kids and packing up everything those kids and baby are going to need before we leave.To know that today is mine to have fun and do what I want rather than think what responsibilities do I need to tend to today . Thats is all I feel like I ever do is tend to the myriad of little nit noid chores of the day. Work, work, work with a few breaks in between but not enough time to truly get out and enjoy myself. Then I think, what is it exactly that I want to do and I realize that life just don't seem as exciting anymore. Nothing seems truly fun, even the things I used to find exciting. Its like the newness of just about everything entertaining I know of has worn off. I'd love to be a kid again, to be able to have fun so easily and to just have all that freedom. Does anyone else feel this way?