Wow.... I'm surrounded by kids and people all the time, but I feel like I'm completely isolated. Sound familiar to you? I used to be an RN working 12 hour shifts, constantly on the go, and never had a free minute in a day. I used to daydream about being a SAHM, homeschooling my kiddos, and being the best housewife I could be. But the truth of the matter is this is the absolute lonliest time of my life.
A little intro... I'm 33, married, and I have three beautiful little angels. My hubby recently took a small church, which uprooted us from family and the few friends we had into a place we've never been before. We've been here nearly two years, and I thought at first I just neded time to settle in. Things have been rough... really, really rough. I'm still standing strong, but sometimes I feel like I'm falling to pieces on the inside. I have no friends whatsoever here. My husband works a full-time job from home, and when he is not working he's being a pastor and all that goes into that. I am with him and my children 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. Even if I had time for myself, I wouldn't know what to do or where to go. Somedays I do ok. There are a few that I do really well. But others, I barely make it through the day. Truth be told, that's the way it is most of the time, only no one really knows. I am a private person, I'm not one of these to air my dirty laundry on facebook. Posting this is not me. This is an "I'm at the end of my rope and I don't know what else to do but vent online to anyone in a cyber audience who cares to listen" kind of deal.
Just wondering if there is anyone else out there in the same or similar boat. Not trying to have a pity party. I'm simply looking for any support out there I can find.