1st off, this past week and a half has been the absolute worst I could have ever imagined. Last Wednesday my mom called me because she was off work. She was going to take my sisters, ages 12 and 18 to the Dr then come to my house to see me. She decided to take a nap. Well, she never woke up. I got a call 45 minutes after I hung up the phone with my mom from my 18 year old sister telling me mom wasn't breathing. I rushed to her house. 30 minutes of CPR and she was gone. She was only 47 years old. We don't have results, but we think it was a seizure. She had one last year that gave us a scare. Anyway, I'm the eldest of 4. My dads never really been around much. So my sisters have been pretty much living with me since my mom passed. I have 5 children of my own. Ages 4 months to 12 years old. I'm ran so ragged. I feel like I haven't really grieved yet. Like its still not real to me. And all of women in my family (aunts, brothers fiancée, and my 18 year old sister keep making plans to go out to hang out to just take their minds off my moms sudden death. I can't go and do anything. I am nursing my youngest baby. I feel so alone. I don't have a babysitter for the older kids anyway. My husband works al of the time. But I feel so alone.
I'm sure I've left so much out, but I need help. Any suggestions would be great! Thanks so much.
on Jul. 19, 2013 at 11:22 PM