I've always worked. Sometimes more than one job. I was a good mom to my 19 year old daughter even though I always worked. Now I have a four year old son who had ASD. It is hard to find him affordable full time care. So I'm switching careers. Right now I stay home I was never a superhero or anything but after doing the almost impossible for so long I'm bored. We are not wealthy but we can get by on one income for now. Anyway here goes... I'm obsessed with saving money. I cut coupons - scour ads for deals -tare dryer sheets in half -make laundry detergent - only eat at home. All of this is good I guess but I'm seriously over doing it. I think I feel kind of worthless not working. Like I'm not pulling my weight. It's not just this I'm also obsessively cleaning everything. Finally I get the chance to stay home I thought I'd be so happy. Instead I'm stressed. I want to do everything perfectly. I made a coupon book. My friends saw how much $ I save they said I'm turning into one of those coupon people from TV. I never scam anything or make my kids go though the line. I'm just very organized. I was not before now I make meal planning charts that coordinate with the food we have- which I coordinate to a list for the store that I cross reference to the weekly ads that I match to the coupons. I also have started loading my friends dishwasher when I stop by (daily) and today I cleaned her bathroom. None of this would be odd but when I worked I was kind of a slob. What's wrong with me?
on Sep. 14, 2013 at 1:45 AM