Sorry so long.
I know this is probably a normal feeling, but I want to see if any other moms have ever felt this way.
I am constantly reading how moms are so elated when they have their babies and they enjoy the times when the babies wake them up in the middle of the night for feedings, diaper changes, etc. I am the exact opposite. I want my sleep and get annoyed when my LO wakes me up in the middle of night. I hate trying to move her into the bedroom to put her in her bassinet so I can sleep in the bed at night fo the fear she will wake up. For example last night, I was so afraid of her waking up; I slept in the living room while she stayed in her swing. I am so cranky and frustrated that I am constantly snapping at DH, and every now and then I start crying out of pure frustration (mainly because DD2 won't stop crying). DH told me I have to "pull it together" which makes me feel like a horrible mom cause I snap at him, get frustrated, and cry cause I'm not in this elated happy mood that I guess he expects me to be in.
It doesn't help that we also have an almost 3 year old that is having her own issues adjusting to having a little sister and either won't go to bed easily or wakes up at night.
Anyone else ever feel this way? And what did you do about it?
Mom of 2; Chloe Rose and Amber Lynn