Okay, so I am a mom of 5 children. My oldest dd is 13. Followed by my almost 10 year old dd, my 6 year old dd, 2 yr old ds and 1 yr old ds. I have been with my husband since I was 15 years old. I am still in love with him 17 years later. And to be completely honest, we are happier than anyone I know. Lol
I am a sahm to our two youngest , the boys. I have to take my 3 girls to school 7:20 for my oldest and 8:30 two younger) and pick them up daily.(2:15 and 3:30) due to no bus running to my house.
My husband makes pretty good money and can pay all the bills and we both decided it's just best for us at the moment the I don't work. It would not work out. Now his work has slowed down and we are beginning to struggle a bit.
My grandmother passed away a little over a year ago and unexpecantly, my mother passed away 9 months ago. They were the two that raised me and now I pretty much have no one. I do have a dad and two little sisters and brother. But my brother is not close and my sisters are 13 and 19 and have their own things going on that I'm apparently not a part of.
My oldest is in the 7th grade. This year has been hell. She had a little "boyfriend" then they broke up. Then she had another in which she sent a boob pic to him and then they broke up and then he spread rumors and she ended up cutting on herself. I never in a million years thought my daughter would ever do anything remotely like that. I took her to therapy and after a few months they said she's great!
Then last week she sends another boob photo to another boy! I took her phone away and all that. I am just lost.
My almost 10 year old is trying to act older, like her sister. My 6 year old is lonely. I know she is! And I just want to get away! Far away! With my husband and children. But no smart phones, no middle school, not this same small town I have lived in my entire life.
My husband traveled a lot when he was younger and lived around the world. Inow he just wants to stay put. Idk what to do. What to feel. I know I've had a messed up year and a half. But I don't know what to do or say.
And to make things worse, I backed my brand spanking new 2014 Odyssey into a parked freaking car this morning. So now I am just so sad!