Ths happened back in january and I'm more mad at myself that I'm still getting upset over this. My birthday is in January and I was turning 30. My husband had made a big deal about me turning 30, saying he was going to have a big suprise and we were going to make a big deal over it. So I got myself all excited over that, having never really had a real "party" and what not. The day comes, and he spent the entire day playing video games with his friends, and even had it turned on in the background while we had supper. I spent the entire day taking care of our kids and cleaning the house. I thought maybe he planned a suprise in the next few weeks or so. But january comes and goes and nothing. Then Valenties Day I thought he'd make up for it, but instead we argued the whole day (I can't remember over what...) and then Mother's Day he decides to pick a huge fight with my dad at the restaurant and walk out. I spent that entire day crying and telling him that he couldn't give me this ONE day. As I type I'm thinking that this is really selfish of me to be upset over not getting any special treatment, but I also stayed home with our kids for 2 years while he went out with friends and worked and came and went as he pleased. I thought I derserved a little something special on MY days. Just 2 days out of the year was all I was asking.
Anyways, his father's birthay is this Saturday and he's talking about how they're throwing him a huge party with a slide show and he'll be singing him all kinds of songs and really make a big deal out of it. And it upsets me. I know I'm being selfish 'cause all I can think is why couldn't you make something even half this size for me? The problem is that I just can't seem to get over it. And I don't want to feel this way. I've tried just getting over it but I still find myself getting upset every so often. And he knows why I'm upset, we have talked about it. Has anyone else ever had this issue, and how did you deal with it? It's been well over 6 months, I shouldn't still be feeling this way should I? What do I do?!