Has anyone lost anyone close to you and you still think of them constantly 15 years later.
My nana died when I was in highschool, she pretty much too care of us when my parents divorced. My mom left us and my dad and his mom (my nana) took care of us and raised us. We were very close. Sure we had our ups and downs just like a mother/daughter relationship, but I loved her very much. I never thought she would die at such a young age, I dont even think she was 60 when she died. She was never even sick, she went to the hospital because her back hurt her and it turned out she had a blocked artery and she died. I sure there were other health issues, but I'm not exactly sure what she died of. Anyways it's been almost 15 years and I still think about her everyday. I am sad and I wish she was around to see my kids grow up. I know how much she would have loved them, she was very close to me. I sometimes see a women walking down the street and she'll be dressed like how my nana was and I'll have to take a second look or i'll smell her perfume in the air and I'll look around. I even have dreams where she is in them and we'll be surrounded by family and no one can see her but me. What does this all mean and how come I cannot get her out of my head. I want to remember her yes, but I dont want to be so sad when I think about her not being here.