My husband and I were married for three months when we got pregnant. We were so excited, it was scarry as we were both teens and got married in high school but we only had a few months til grad. We planned to wait a few years after we got married but hey it happened early and we were happy! Six months later I was told that The pregnancy was considered a molar and that the babies organs did not all develop fully and that even if i made it ful term she would not survive more than a few hours. we were crushed. Two weeks later I went into labor and they couldnt stop it. My daughters heart stopped just before she was born. Her heart and brain were the only organs that fully developed.Apparently her lungs only developed to a 11 % and kidneys to a 6 %. It was too much of a strain and her heart was weak and had a hole in it anyway and she couldnt make it! It was so hard for us! We couldnt even have a proper burrial, I got so cick and hemmoraged and was knocked out for three days so i was even able to see her. The doctors took her and we never saw her again. Apparently three months later we found out they had sent her off for testing. The showed us the pictures like we would actually want to see where the genetics went wrong, as if she was nothing. The labs cremated her. I will never forgive the drs or the hospital. My husband still blmaes himself for not knowing what he was supposed to do or for stoping them. I will never blame him, I just wish hed realize it wasnt his fault! I wish I could have just seen her once! We named her Alaina Katheryn.It was horrible to feel my baby moving and kicking for six months to hear her precious heartbeat then to be told she wouldnt live then to never even get to see her!
We have had a hard time since then having kids but we never gave up. Almost 9 years past and we have had 6 more miscarriages and been blessed with two beautiful baby girls. My girls both have medical conditions and were very difficult pregnancies and births. It was so hard during my pregnancies worrying if they make it or not. I never stopped worrying until they were born. I was on bed rest for 4 months and in the hospital for 1 month with my oldest she was born 4 weeks early. With my youngest (My baby) i was on bed rest for 3 months and in hospital for two weeks she was only born two and a half weeks early. I had c-sections with all three. My baby only has autism and sensory issues and asthma, she was very lucky. my oldest dd has mulitple spinal problems asthma allergies, reflux,etc. It has been a huge battle. I want mroe than anything to have more kids but I am just grateful for my two(and the niece we have custody of) I will never get over loosing my daughter or all 6 of the sweet babies we lost to miscarriage, I just hope one day I can accept and move on!
I have been married for nine years to the most wonderful man. I am 26 years old. I have three beautiful girls that brighten my days Ages 5, 4, 3! I am a volunteer firefighter and EMT. I am a part time student planning on becoming a nurse practioner. I hope to one day adopt more kids but well see. I love to read and scrapbook. I love swimming and playing with my girls. i am a proud socer and girl scout momma. My husband and kids are my world!
dearest kyfiregirl, god bless you through your hard times. Back in 1985 , my husband and I lost our first daughter, amanda marie. We had to get married, and both wanted her so terribly badly. I was due on Jan. 17, and started bleeding on Jan. 1. I delivered her on New years day. As you can imagine, new years can come and go.... I now have five grown children, and two grandbabies. But, nothing, and I mean nothing will ever take the place of Amanda Marie. My heart still aches for my first born, as you I am sure can imagine. Even though it has been 24 years since my terribly loss, I still feel it was just yesterday. Remember, honey, even though we can not touch or see them, they are alway, and I mean alway in hearts and memory. NO ONE can take that from us! My dearest thoughts are will you..... If you would like to talk anytime, please don't hesitate,,, Twinlo71065@yahoo.com....... god bless you and our angels..... Laura
I'm so sad
- kyfiregirl
on Feb. 8, 2009 at 12:30 AM