Fear of the Unknown

[zorgermommy]

Right now, as I'm typing, I may be beginning the wonderful world of gestating.  I really don't know yet if I am, but I backtracked on my days (my cycles, the ovulation days, stuff like that.) Since I am on blood thinners, they have to switch me over to Heparin or Lovanox BEFORE I get pregnant.  We've been careful about counting my days, planning it out, and having a couple of days we can (WARNING: about to be TMI) make love "bareback"...without worrying about getting pregnant.  Well, last night was my husband's birthday, we got caught up in the moment, and things happened last night.  Well, this morning, I was counting backwards on my calendar, and Boom...it hit me like a ton of bricks...LAST NIGHT WAS THE BEST NIGHT TO GET PREGNANT.

Most women would be thrilled, but I know that I'm not like most women.  I have to wait on eggshells until I can take a test, but I'm worrying myself sick.  I know that I did something bad, because Coumadin can be VERY bad for little ones developing, and I feel guilt about that.  All I can do is wait until I can take a test and if I am, I have to call my doctor and get an appointment set to start me on Heparin (at least I'm hoping they will let me do Heparin...it's almost the same thing as Lovanox and about the third of the cost.) and hope to God that I didn't harm my child.

Any advice on how to wait out the next couple of weeks until I can take a test?  HELP ME!!! I'm already stressing because I start my new job on Monday and won't get insurance until May.

Thanks for listening and letting me vent.  Any advice would be greatly appreciated!

Jill

[jchady]

So what happened?  If you did conceive, God had a plan in it.  I hope everything is alright.