I don't know if anyone else is going through this, or has gone through it, but I have a problem that I am really embarrassed about.
I have type II bipolar disorder and just found out 6 months ago. I still don't feel well from the medication and the side effects from the medication are so bad. I feel like the worst mother on earth. Before dealing with this, I was dealing with auto immune diseases and was sick ALL the time. I was feeling really depressed last night when I tucked my beautiful daughter into bed and didn't want her to see me cry anymore, so I told her I was sick and had to go. She held my face and said, 'You are always sick, Mommy.'
I just want to feel well and be the mom I know I can be... The mom I used to be before all of this sickness started.
I have been so ashamed of what's going on that I haven't really seen any of my friends in about 6 months... When I have really bad up's and down's I just tell people that I am sick or that I am not feeling well. I am tired of lying about it. I am just looking for someone to relate to.
Please respond if you have dealt with any health issues that you feel are getting in the way of being the mom you want to be. This is SO hard and I just need a friend right now.
thanks for reading.