I moved out of my marital home after 14 yaers of marriage. tried everything in past 4 years to work out the problems. I can't go into the details of why I moved out just now, but I have now filed for Khula, and divorce via the courts. My parents after so many years of trying support this move. They are very supportive and helping me in every way. But I can't help feeling a whole aray of emotions. I feel relief being away from the relationship. I feel guilty as I has moved the kids away from their dad, Mumm 4 year old misses him soo. I feel sad as I feel like I have had to give up on a dream that on day every thing will be ok. I want the divorce to be final asap, but ofcource it takes time. Since moving out he has not contacted the kids or me. I am supporting and caring for them with the help of my parents.
Please dont judge me for being the one to initiate the divorce, I jusyt could not continue in a relationship that made me feel small, worthless and was teaching my boys to direspect myself and oithers.
Is it normal to think of this issue every minute of every day? i/m continuing to work and look after my kids. but feel very emotional. I've not spoke to my parents, as they worry incase i/m having second thoughts.